"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5
I remember staring out at the water, breathing in the sea air and feeling the warmth of the sun on my skin. Something about the water always makes me feel closest to God. That day I was staring into the waves and watching them crest and fall with a heavy heart, a confused heart...a desperate heart. "Why do You allow me to have desires for things that may never be given to me, Lord?" I asked. I didn't hear an answer that day. But I always felt His warmth. For years and years I asked this of God and He loved me still. I read Prov. 3:5 and found myself truly struggling to keep trusting. I had good days of truly surrendering to Him, and low days of wanting to give up. But while my life felt turbulent and unresolved, He never changed. He still loved me, He still had a plan for me, and He wasn't willing to let go of HIS best for me just so I could get my answer faster.
Looking back now I see why I had to wait. I see the beauty and perfection of His plan, even though it was not how I wanted it to play out. If you are in the midst of a struggle with God, hear this and know that He really does hear you. Be patient, be humble, be willing to let go even if it means not getting your way. Because truly, His ways are higher than our ways, and one day you will see what He already knew all along. God bless you and comfort you in your journey.
And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” (Matthew 28:20b)
Journey on!